I’m so fucking tired… tired of believing that everything will be alright. Tired of believing that everything will be OK. it’s too late fore that. I know that it is. I’m tired of everyone believing that nothing is wrong with me because I;m good at putting on a fake smile and laughing it off as if it is OK. I’m tired of being a “good friend” by letting someone else do what they want while I deal with whatever mess was made by them. I’m tired of my parents believing that I’m a perfect child, when I know that I’m not. When I know that I won’t ever live up to their standings. When I know that if they hear half of that shit that runs through my head I know that they would make me see a therapist. I’m tired of living a fake life where everyone comes to me to help solve there problems, and there is no one there to help me solve mine. I’m tired of being alone at night. I’m tired of not having anyone there who will just hold me tight and make me believe for once in my life everything will actually be alright. Make me believe that I am going to be OK. Some one to make a place feel like a home, not just a house. Some one to make me feel truly happy for once. Some one to make me feel whole for the first time in my life.
TIL all people who play Udyr are cunts
Tomorrow is my birthday, and i get to spend it riding in a car up to chicago to go to my cousins graduation party. can’t wait…